The week started with headaches and worries over just how much fruit I'd have to consume in a morning to keep myself awake and not crabby. I've struggled with blood sugar issues all my life and the idea of not starting my day with some protein freaked me out quite a bit. But, it went well. Turns out I don't need to eat bushels of fruit to make it from 5 am to noon. Just a few pieces as I get hungry. No big deal.
I've noticed the same salad that I scarfed down last Monday I ate probably 3/4s of today. Just not as hungry. Perhaps my stomach is shrinking. Perhaps food is not being as interesting to me as it was before. I don't know. But I feel better. I do have more energy. In fact, yesterday marked my return to daily exercise (beyond just a 40 minute walk with Bob and the dog). I'm back to the Wii Active and already my muscles are screaming. In that good way, though. If it doesn't hurt, how did I know I did anything?
I'd like to think that week one was a success. We ate more vegetables and fruits in a week than I probably had all of December. I felt full and satisfied and have been able to watch the numbers creep down on my scale daily. I just feel.. healthier inside. And my sugar cravings are all but gone for the moment. Though, on Wednesday of last week Bob and I had broccoli, salad and pancakes. So.. that probably helped, too. Mmmm.
For once, I can't wait to step on the scale tonight!
- Current Location:Rossi Concrete
- Current Mood: chipper
Did you know there were so many different kind of apples?!
Of course you did. However, I was only familiar with Granny Smith, Gala, and Fuji. The rest of these apples were a mystery to me. So, I buffet'd and will now spend the next couple mornings sampling these apples until I find out which ones appeal to my refined-sugar-starved taste-buds.
I'm also giving pears another shot, as everyone seems to rave about them. So far, I think I prefer them crunchy, which sort of leaves me out of the Henry and David fan club.
It is my greatest hope that eliminating sweets from my menu will make all fruits more appetizing and soon I'll be just like the rest of you: not afraid of melon! This of course, makes me a baker who does not eat her creations. So I'm going to need a taste-tester. ;D
Anyway: Please enlighten me on your favorite fruits. Specific names for everything please, because apparently picking out fruit is more like tea shopping that I thought!
- Current Mood: chipper
I heard about it at work from one of my delightful coworkers. She has just such a sweet disposition and her enthusiasm makes me want to follow in her footsteps with a gusto. So, we're trying this out. I won't go into the rules of this, except to say there's a chart to be followed and many times she and I are still figuring out what's okay, and what isn't.
But it's fun. It's programmed to keep my blood sugar in check, help me lose weight, and bring my energy levels up. I'm just two days into the program, but I already feel like all three of those things are happening. The first morning was a little tough, but really, I've had twenty-seven years to eat all kinds of nonsense, perhaps it's time to give all that garbage up and focus on something other than my taste buds. I keep telling myself, if I'm not taking care of my body it won't be around long enough to taste anything. So, perhaps junk food just isn't worth it anymore.
I'll check in on this subject next week and see if I've lost any weight or if I feel any different. I figure I have about 60 pounds to lose. It isn't too crazy to think that ten pounds o a month could happen. And if this is the case, then I'll see you all at the beach in July!
- Current Mood: cold
The aftermath of the wedding has finally released it's hold on me. Things are mostly back to normal, at least within our household. Laundry is finished, Christmas is put away, and Bob and I have settled back into our comfortable routine. The one thing that isn't better is the enormous dose of family drama that decided to rear its obnoxious head the night of our wedding. The details of which will be saved for a longer and more angrier post.
Anyway, I want to make this a routine. I have a book full of writing exercises to prompt me on days I don't have something to get off my chest. I have a couple ideas swirling around in my head to begin work on The Novel (which I will, if I don't hurry up, forget all the details and it will turn into The Short Story).
My current gripe is this: I feel like returning to this Livejournal isn't a new, fresh start. I feel like there's something a little different about this previous Katie that wrote here, just as the one who blogged on sortafairytale.com is an entirely different girl altogether. I want a clean slate, I think.
I'm trying to rationalize it like this: In my writing research (the how-to, not plot), it's been suggested that a spot be chosen for writing. A desk, a coffee shop, a nice park. I feel like I haven't figured out where that's going to be either. I share an office with Bob and while he's very respectful, I'm easily distracted by what's happening on his monitor and would never get anything done there. Currently I'm downstairs on the couch, but this may be too close to the kitchen to keep from sabotaging my other New Years Resolution. If money was better, I'd like to choose Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf as my new spot. Rewarding every chapter with a fresh Winter Dream Tea Latte.
I'm looking at Livejournal the same way. I've been here before, it doesn't feel quite right, and if I flip back there's all this other stuff. I want my own thing, but that's the equivalent of writing behind a locked door.
When I close my eyes, I picture myself in light, airy room with white painted furniture and a huge picture window where I can watch snow fall in between passages. Deep inside, though, I know even if I got situated with that, it wouldn't magically make me write.
Why does something I love so much feel so difficult?
- Current Mood: cold
I'm reading books about writing, listening to podcasts about writing, and talking to Kendra, a lot, about writing. What I'm not doing is actually writing more than a few quick writes each week with the girls. But considering I haven't touched this since February, I suppose that's already a lot more than I was doing.
But what I've really come to say is, I think I may be moving off of Livejournal and back onto something more private because I have an itch to design up my domain again and throw some stuff up there. Maybe as practice for the wedding-info site I need to put up for December. I dunno.
Or maybe it's just one more thing: "I can write as soon as I x, y, z.."
- Current Mood: sleepy
The first 5 people that respond to this post will get something made by me. It will be about, or tailored to, those first five people who respond.
This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make.
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be done this year.
- You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be a mix tape. It may be fic, or a poem. I may draw or paint something. I might bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange (you really should be worried at this point).
The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to put this in your journal as well, if you expect me to do something for you!
The Lucky List
- Current Mood: bouncy
Today we'll go to a Victorian-esque house in Hemet to see how it looks inside. It's gorgeous from the outside, but I'm not all too thrilled about the location. Even if we don't decide to go this route, at least I will have finally gotten to see the inside of that place.
We're trying to keep costs down.. which is also nerve wracking. At 18 I had no idea how much anything cost.. and I'd also be willing to bet that things have gotten a lot more expensive in the last eight years.
There's still the matter of what type of dress, what song to dance to, how to chop down the guest list a bit.. oh, and about a million other things.
But at least there's incentive. See, I've been doing rather well since the beginning of the year -- eating my fruits and veggies, drinking my water, getting in my exercise. I figure, had I stuck to it last year and been patient, I'd be a lot closer to where I want to be now. So.. looking at it that way, perhaps by Christmas time I'll be able to fit nicely into the dress I have my eye on (No, I'm not sharing the picture just yet!). But we'll see.
However it turns out it will be nice to finally meet a lot more of Bob's family, as well as celebrate with my own. :)
- Current Mood: happy
"Goddamn it, Cory. I miss you already. This house is way too quiet now."
"I'm sitting here watching the sun rays creep into my boy's room and slowly drift across his sleeping face. "
"I'll admit I've been glancing at Abe's Myspace every once in a while over the last several months --"
"Mostly I spend my days keeping busy: working with my brother on the new side of Stick It Graphics, cleaning out cupboard after cupboard in my home, making closet space.. and so on."
"My posting habits are changing."
"Apparently it took until yesterday for the 14-year-old inside of me to realize, yes, Katie, there will be an X-Files movie."
"Found this on Fark today."
Not an entry, just a link to Eli Mattson's video. <3
"I feel like I should take some time to wax poetic about all of this, since these last few weeks have been absolutely magical, but.. my head isn't there yet."
"Roughly 52 percent of you bought into those happy yellow "Yes on Proposition 8!" signs with people holding hands."
. . .
So my posting is few and far between these days. I skipped June and December completely, despite the fact that I'm sure there were many things to write about. Facebook has made me lazy. I've got to feeling that if I snap up a million pictures I can simply post those and let them do all the talking for me.
Life is progressing. We've had Cory here for nearly his full duration (Disneyland tomorrow and Seaport Village still left for tonight!), have had a marvelous Christmas and New Years.. it's been a fun time. This entire year, despite the economy worries, has been one of my best in a long, long time. I've taken on a lot of responsibilities this year and I think that I'm finally, finally getting the hang of this "grown-up thing." I've had friends take huge steps in their relationships, huge steps in their careers.. and I can't be prouder. I feel confident at work and at home and am finding myself ready to take on even more challenges in the coming year.
Last year's resolution was this:
"So the only resolution I'm making this year is to do everything in my power to chase my dreams. To allow myself to feel magical all year long. To love hard and long and kick the What If's in their metaphorical buckteeth. To make up for at least three years of feeling like I'd settled for my lot in life. No more "this is as good as it gets." Because it isn't and it never has to be."
I think I did pretty well. :D
- Current Mood: accomplished